Tag: heartbreak

2020

2020

The apex of insanity

Turbulent, Chaotic, Tumultuous

T ’was my zenith, however

My days of halcyon

My peak of perfection

A golden era of your eyes

Burning towards mine

Half closed as your lips inched ever so close

Glazed in a sensation of merriment

When our hearts fluttered in anticipation of the next time

And the time after that

Even the time after that

For there were to be a myriad of instances

In that most breathtaking of years

Mythical, even fictitious

That someone so spectacular

Could ever be so drawn to me

Regrettably, the inevitable occurred

Not in one single stroke

Rather, over time

The pendulum eventually sways in the other direction

Slowly, unnoticeably

Such as the earth rotates on its axis

A pendulum that promotes its personal vendetta against me

By inexplicably changing your mind

The gods of loneliness and angst always win

It’s undefeated record intact

Save for that one beautiful year in 2020

New Year

Her lips at midnight

The perfect segue

Into a new year

Hardships

Forthcoming challenges

Buoyed by them

💔

But those were years past

Today her lips have gone missing

They are elsewhere

Even if I feel

They still belong here

💔

As the clock approaches midnight

To ring in this new year

I acknowledge my latest test

Is my most essential yet

For it’s my first

Without her lips

The Empty Room

Oh, how right the world was

That Christmas Eve

A mere two years ago

Moving in cadence

Clockwise

To the chords of sweet acapella

Illuminated by the blinking lights of holiday cheer

💔

Fast forward one year

The song still played

Albeit faintly

Its powerful emotion faded

Together in person; gone in all other ways

A prelude to heartache

💔

Accelerate to today

No song to be heard

Only the occasional pop of the pipes fills the airwaves

All loving emotions rendered to oblivion

It’s as if the characters were a mirage

That it never happened

Only brought back when the lights illuminate the empty room

I Would Have Married Her

I would have married her

That much is certain

Would’ve given her the fairytale all girls dream of

Ever since they were young

Forever played out in my mind

A predictable, storybook ending

But alas, the unpredictable nudged itself into the script ……..

I should have seen it coming

The lack of eye contact

Head bowed in shame

Cold, one word responses

Unanswered messages

Creative excuses

All ignored in the desperate hope I was imagining it all

But I knew all along………

Now I sit alone and ponder

I know she’s with him

Whoever he is

I have no idea who he is yet I feel for him

For he has no clue what’s to come

It’ll hit him like a sledgehammer to the core

It’s inevitable

Despite his acts of kindness towards her that’s beyond anybody’s allotment………

She is unable to accept any sort of happiness

Never felt fulfillment so the mere thought signals something is wrong

So she must go

Into the arms of his successor

Who has no inkling of the role he’s about to inherit………

I would have married her

Can you believe that?

New Girl

They call her the new girl

She’s the trainee, she’s on probation

She’s got a lot to prove

She doesn’t seem to have what it takes

No ambition, no sense of urgency

Walks around like a zombie

She’s quiet, doesn’t say much

Doesn’t even try to fit in

She’s not invited to join the team for after hours drinks

She wouldn’t go anyway

“Why did they hire her?”

She knows she’s the black sheep

She hears the whispers, sees the finger pointing

Her personal world is crashing down around her

Her love was sent home, nothing they can do for him

Around the clock hospice

She remembers helping him move that very bed into that room

It’s where their kids were conceived

Lots of wonderful memories in that 14 X 16 space

It’ll be where she holds his hand for the last time

Where he’ll take his final breath

She won’t be able to sleep there after that

She’ll have to explain to their kids why she sleeps on the couch

That day is coming

Could be a couple of weeks, maybe a couple of months

She goes to the office to pay the medical expenses

She would rather be with him

They just assume she’s stuck on herself

They don’t bother to find out

She doesn’t offer

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